christmas 2002 (?) with Ivan + the guitars

I forgot about this, but it really woke me up mid way through the night.

Click to hear an old song an ex boyfriend/guitar teacher + I did being silly one night. I remember sitting in his studio inside his north jersey apartment many evenings learning those 6 strings...

It is the second song on my google web page: 01 Track 1

It was our "christmas card."

km.

standing over me, a dose of spirit

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A snowy 7pm walk home with a friend after a new yoga class had me contemplating about the views we see and don't see...

She got to her street and we hugged goodbye.

I crossed the street to the other side
Just because
I needed to see that other view from way over there

Tonight, I was surprised with a few new Views. All it took was thought, energy and special waves...

thanks,
kat.view.ing

Opening to Song Sharing

I am experimenting and Opening up...

I stored a song on a google page. Wow, I am learning! ;) You can attempt to open it up in Windows Media Player. I hope this works. I suggest you use headphones plugged into your computer for better sound - well, it works better for me that way...

I thought it could be fun to put a voice to a name.

Click on this link to here a song I wrote and performed into a way old iRiver recording device. I sorta laid it on a desk in my Dickinson apartment one day and the rest is there to hear.

I do enjoy the very rough quality because it caught a moment.

My moment.

I did this back in 2004 and you may here a bus go by on Dickinson Street. I did absolutely nothing to the file.

Well, here it goes...
kat.

Fringe

sometimes
all a girl needs is a dose of espresso hair
a shot of grey's anatomy
and
a new song brewing in her heart...

xo,
kat.

life lessons always

involve the bittersweet and the sweetest bitter...



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creating a new picture

I was planning on working on this post later this evening after my cooking, but my great idea of making a homemade calzone with spinach, mushrooms, artichokes, salami and mozzarella - got pushed back. I just took a nice long snowy stroll + picked up the necessary groceries, however, umm, I have to thaw out the pizza dough, oh right! So, I attempted defrosting it + now I am letting it sit for one hour. It would have made much more sense for me to run to one of my local pizzerias and ask them if I could purchase fresh dough... But this is me.

This is me.

It has been an eye opening week for me and I was a bit silent on here. I had a personal awakening that I am trying to find the right words to share it properly and without disclosing too many details.

Those of you who read my blog or know me personally understand I had some havoc brewing on this soul of mine for quite some time. I am most proud of myself for taking all of the proper time to heal, introspect, evaluate, watch, understand and embrace the process as it unfolded before me. I won't lie and say I have been the most patient. But I get it now. I really do + I have not felt so at peace in a long time. Every single thing I experienced made this journey that much sweeter...

Last weekend, Reiki blessed my life again and is taking me to It. I am excited for the change of direction. When last weekend ended, my soul was so extremely open. I did a 2 hour Reiki seminar that included some personal Reiki work and then I divulged into a 1.5 hour massage the next day which I intuitively knew included some Reiki (and ironically, after my massage, my masseuse told me he had completed Reiki 1/2).

So, Sunday night had me pondering and aware. I hit a spot and knew this was the time in my life to speak up about what was slowing me down so I could then feel the world picking me back up. Calling someone and asking them to just listen to you without much more as you say some really soul drenching things is not something I ever suggest you jump into. However, I have been preparing + contemplating and had a little sideways nudge I couldn't ignore. It was one of the hardest things I ever did and, equally, one of the best things I ever did. That evening, I felt so light and proud. When I hunkered down for sleep, I had a little out loud conversation as I often do to my little guides...I said I was done. I was done with wasted energy. Done. I said a lot more than that, but the details are for me.

...The next evening something arrived that has me smiling. I know why it came. I sort of asked for it. I am not sure what it is just yet, I am just happily going with it + enjoying this journey.

But this Thing that appeared is a lot like me. And, I thank that Thing for this fun week of creative exchange + such...

Peace In,
kat.

Mom's side of the Family

Coming Home.

I found my Sun when no one was looking...

Little Fact

I ate 5 oatmeal cookies for dinner and Javier ate a dead fly...

Who was more unhealthy?

giggles,
kat.

Circled

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The yoga community has led me back to Reiki and I hear it loud and clear. I participated in a two plus hour workshop Saturday afternoon that had me smiling + breathing peacefully. I felt home amongst the 20 new strangers that sat in a circle hands outstretched sharing each other's energy. I know it sounds like some new-wavish baloney, but it was exactly the place I needed to get to. I met some beautiful people who are all looking for the same thing: a new community space of positive, warm, embracing souls. There is no judgment or sideway glances, just a space where we entered into; a place to land softly as who we have become.

Reiki is an energy-based form of bodywork with roots in Japan. It is a form of palm healing which is beneficial to healing the mind and soul associated with illness and stress. We all have energy. We all can learn this beautiful art form.

I had two practitioners perform Reiki sessions on me and they felt what I have known all along. I was told by others as well (in Reiki sessions and in life) that I am an extremely open energy source with a very high intuition. (I have ignored it in the past and am aware of it). But, I am finally ready to Trust what my body tells me. Both sessions were heartwarming. I set my intention for the day and gave it away. It is funny, but I have not felt better physically in my life as I do right now. I am taking care of me in so many ways and my stomach is back to normal! =) It was really bad for about a year... I have lost some weight and feel lighter. My doctor questioned it last week, but I explained to her that I am finally understanding what I can eat to feel good and that my healthier yoga lifestyle keeps me grounded. She got it... I get it!

And with that said, I have decided to enroll in a 10 week session detailing Reiki 1. It will be an intensive weekly class that is about 3 hours long held in the evenings. And, the amazing thing is the timing is so right. Everything is right. The teacher is going to work with me on a payment plan and is allowing her students to decide in some ways what they can afford. There is a sliding scale tuition, but there is movement for change + understanding.

I know best that all I need is some change + understanding...

Today I am treating myself to an hour and a half deep tissue massage to end this weekend in the utmost peace.

And, then next week on doctor's orders, I begin physical therapy for my neck, shoulder and back. And, I have to have my elbow drained from the bursitis I developed during my staircase fall! That fall down the stairs caused some damage, but nothing I can't fix. The physical therapy will allow me to have full movement in my neck, shoulder and upper back once again. Right now, they are one tight mess! My boss is also being flexible and allowing me to schedule the appointments as I need at any time of the day. I feel like the world is working with me...

It's all great stuff. I feel like it is all coming together. I can see the left hand turn right up ahead and I already have my blinker on.

circling through,
kat.

brio vim

(image from the website)

Brio Vim

Wanna do yoga in your living room? Well, tonight I dropped in on a new yoga studio close to my home. It's actually a row-home-revamped-turn-yoga-studio. Very warm, personal + simple. You would NEVER know from the outside that this was a studio. (I am glad I did a drive by over the weekend to search it out.) And, better yet, it's a pay what you wish program! The class I took tonight was a bit easier than what I usually prefer, but when that thought entered my head, I took my deep yoga breathe and let it go. I am glad I opened up to a change in pace.

Sometimes slower is so much better...

I enjoyed the personalized attention I received during class and mostly, I relaxed into the oil massage during savasanna. The instructor pulled my arms and legs out, stretched my warm muscles and then, massaged my neck, temples, and jaw.

Peace.

And, on the way out, she told me about the FREE Reiki seminar on Saturday that will discuss their certification program AND talk about the process. Funny, didn't I say about 4 or 5 months ago that maybe Reiki is something I should really look into? (And, I did, but the school I was talking to was too expensive for my budget.)

Reminders are there.

Sometimes you just have to listen.

Namaste,
kat.

next step

buy me!

Pushing for Change

I am looking, wondering, feeling + deciding. I got pushed tonight. I pushed back.

I sold three more pairs of earrings in a friend's store and after she came over check-in-hand and we caught up on the crafty dilemmas, I was back on doing what I should be doing. After some encouraging and sweet words, I am back to posting on etsy. Two of the above are new posts. The thing is my cute little studio has at least 20 fresh pairs of earrings completed and not posted...I was sideswiped again by those damn fireflies.

I am not sure what it is or why. I just need a little more time...

A little more time, that's all.

I am somewhere else tonight with contacts that have been in my eyes since 7am and a few glasses of wine working my system. Jeez, so much I want to say, but I won't.

Not tonight because the craft is back on and my house was rearranged and it feels good. Slight change is amazing!



I can't sleep again, that's all...

Somewhere,
kat.

Fun with Friends

Poloroid

photo fun here

Starting the New Year with poloroids. And, the thing is, the program allows you the option of saving the photo at various points of development.

Love the Poloroids! And, either I am way overtired or ultra addicted to the program (and this laptop)...