i said this in 2009

oh those lanes

feeling nostalgic
driving in circles
ending back to a spot from 5 plus years ago
a place i once lived
waving
smiling
listening
questioning
knowing
remembering
times of hardship and ease
love and seeds
on the brink of more change
night time rides
with midtown and ataris and and nofx and pennywise and alkaline trio and jets to brazil and douglas and h2o and no avail and bouncing souls and dropkick murphys
and Fireflies
summer guitar riffs
the soft case always in my backseat
with a bag of drums and some tin cans
a triangle
cymbals
ready for change and tuned noise
and feeling today
something i didn't right then
driving home to sounds that evoked memory
wondering if
or about

once upon a time
i knew a girl
who
sounded a bit more excited
extremely rambunctious
a little less settled
much more afraid
much more trusting
trying to save the world
one small runny nose at a time

this same world that keeps
throwing me for a ride
circle upon circle upon circle
once upon a time
i want to say i stopped looking back
and decided
why don't i look forward
looking forward
i want to say that

xo,
kat.

home for the holidays

we laughed
we drank
we were way silly!
we put towels on our heads fastened by clothespins
we put dad in a face mask with the towel and clothespins
we made silly faces
we snapped pictures
we got mommy mad with our ridiculous gestures
we had fun with the baby belly almost done!
we made martinis
we ate ate ate
we finished off 2009 with calories and cuddles
we watched julie and julia
we giggled

i sighed
happy to be home
for another day or so
warm house + food
pedicure?

merry xmas, happy holidays, here is to 2010
xo + hearts,
kat.

i am on a mission

i am on a mission.
it's top secret.
i'll be good once i get in
here.

k.

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me hearts you.

xoXOxo,
kat.

my worst habit

yoga made sense tonight.
so did Rumi.
i was stuck in the middle of a bad habit.
contemplating not moving.
because of the thought that took over inside.
and ten minutes before class started, i got up and went.
i just went to class.
i broke the bad habit that
slightly
had me going bonkers.
i went to the mat.
i laid a new intention all over it.
i said, dammit, i will break this habit.
i will stop believing (insert my worst habit).

i sent me back to me.
and i went back to being cute.
leggings, tank top, sweater vest + boots. cute me.

xo
kat.

My Worst Habit
by Rumi

My worst habit is I get so tired of winter
I become a torture to those I'm with.

If you're not here, nothing grows.
I lack clarity. My words
tangle and knot up.

How to cure bad water? Send it back to the river.
How to cure bad habits? Send me back to you.

When water gets caught in the habitual whirlpools,
dig a way out through the bottom
to the ocean. There is a secret medicine
given only to those who hurt so hard
they can't hope.

The hopers would feel slighted if they knew.

Look as long as you can at the friend you love,
no matter whether that friend is moving away from you
or coming back to you.

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smokin' hot

chocolate chip cookies for dinner are delish
washed down with a few tasty beers
over silly tv
dog cuddles
snow drifts
and one day of work left
and two weeks of vacation ahead
relaxed
totally relaxed to the max

xo
kat.